52 Pillows – #12 – Nest

This week’s pillow did not go as planned and I would like to start over or just trash it and do something different. But I’ve been sick, I’m worn out, and I don’t care anymore. I just want to get it done and move on. Which is kind of sad because I had such great intentions, I wanted to say so many things with this pillow and have it turn out brilliantly. Oh well… I’ll just show you and then give you the background…


Ok, so first off, if you can’t tell, it’s a nest with 3 eggs. Here is the picture I used as a reference for the nest…

The technique is freehand machine embroidery. I’ve done it in the past, a long time ago, but never tried to create a picture like this. I wanted to emulate the shading and dimension using thread and stitches and used 4 different colors to do this, layering the different colored stitches on top of one another. The technique is pretty chaotic and messy as you can see here, but it seemed like the perfect technique to create a nest…

As far as why I made a nest with 3 eggs? Well, this was my idea for announcing that I’m expecting a baby. (Surprise!) The “R” egg is for my 8-year-old boy and the “J” egg is for my baby boy who was stillborn about 4 years ago and the blank egg is for our baby on the way.

I had planned on talking more about when our baby was stillborn, how it was just a few months after my father’s suicide and how a thick mental and emotional fog enveloped me for months and months. I was going to talk about how I walked around for months feeling like there was a raw gaping hole in my chest where my heart had been that anybody who looked at me could see. I was going to talk about how the volunteers at S.H.A.R.E. helped me and how months of therapy and reading self-help books and doing the work of grieving helped me get back on my feet and how it was a few years before I even started to feel like myself again. And I was going to talk about how losing my second baby helped me realize I’m a pretty good mom to my boy “R”. And after reading “Eat, Pray, Love” and reading the quote “We must get our hearts broken sometimes. This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something…” I realized that I had to try for another baby or I’d regret it. And so here I am, halfway through my third pregnancy, worried, excited, hoping, praying…..

So back to the pillow – I’m chalking this week’s pillow up to another good try and better luck next time. Seems appropriate…

Nest Pillow shown ©2011 TiffinyDesigns

Posted in 52 Pillows Project, Blog Posts, Fabric of Life, Parenting and Family Tagged with: , ,
2 comments on “52 Pillows – #12 – Nest
  1. Tiff,
    I think the pillow is lovely, and the take-off from Julie & Julia is brilliant.

    I am so sorry to hear all that has happened to you. I’ve been so wrapped up in my own grief and healing that I forget others go through their own trials and pain.

    I can’t believe you’ve been able to keep up on your blog with everything that’s happened. But then again, once you commit to something, you expect to produce results.

    I love you!

  2. Thank you Jenny and great to hear from you!

    I love you and miss you!

1 Pings/Trackbacks for "52 Pillows – #12 – Nest"
  1. […] #12 Nest (I made this before our Jenna was born – now the blank egg could be stitched with another “J”. However, it won’t be because of the pillows so far, this is my least favorite and it is now residing at the landfill.) […]

Get the latest posts in your inbox...


TiffinyDesigns Patterns also available at:

Download Sewing Patterns Today!